Monday, June 13, 2005

Living in Silence.

I want to thank the guys from DominicanBlogger for making mine the blog of the week. In all honesty, I NEVER expected it so thank you very much.
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Saturday morning I woke up and had a very upsetting realization: I had lost my voice completely. I tried to speak repeatedly but nothing except air came out. To make things worse, I had a friend staying over for the weekend who will talk for as long as you let her, so the thought that she may be talking endlessly for 48 hours was EXTREMELY disturbing.

One thing I learned this weekend as I slowly but surely got my ass kicked by the worse cold I’ve had in a while is that living silently in a loud world really does suck. Especially if like me, you are an extremely vocal person.

Very often people have asked me if I don’t get lonely living alone. Most of the time- I do have my moments- I really don’t mind it at all. I actually favor it. Since I’ve been living alone on and off since I was 16 I have grown accustomed to being alone and truth be told, I really like it. I’m not a big fan of people invading my space for extended periods of time.

The only time when I wish I had someone around is when I get sick to the point of helplessness. This weekend wasn’t SO bad, except that while my houseguest was out and about, I couldn’t even order myself food and that’s when I knew I was in trouble. Although a good friend volunteered via Messenger to make a long distance call for the sole purpose of feeding me (thanks!!!), I- quite embarrassed might I add- wrote my order on a piece of paper along with instructions and asked my doorman to order it for me. That’s sad.

At times like those I desperately hope for mommy; but thankfully, I usually get better before I make the mistake of starting to think that I need to go home.

Today I am feeling better, though nowhere near 100%. I have that sexy, raspy voice I always wished for that sounds nowhere near like me, and I guess that’s the silver lining. My boss gave me the afternoon off so that I may fully recover and I think that today my time would be well spent at the park soaking up some Vitamin D while reading my new book.


I’ve taken so much stuff for this cold that I’m going to need to seriously detox once I am completely cured.

It’s been three days since I’ve last smoked. I haven’t done any running yet because I don’t have the energy to; but I intend to start as soon as possible. In the meantime, I am taking walks. Oh! And I lost (again) 4 of the precious pounds I've worked so hard to regain. I am so annoyed…

12 comments:

Robert_M said...

3 days, that's great! I know you can do it.

Libélula said...

I still live with my parents, so when I get sick my mommy takes care of me (awww). The worst for me is getting my period. I am literally useless for about 2 days. She gives me this “concoction” made of Brandy or Cognac and Ginger Tea…I’m all better in no time!

Hope you get well soon!

Pia Talks said...

When I lose my voice-once a year--I order from local restaurants on the internet

Hope you're feeling better.

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Bracuta said...

(having a drag from my Marlboro) Good for you! Smoking is VERY harmful (having another drag)...

dan said...

Yeah, once you've done a week it'll be worth it.

Stay away from bars for a while. I found that's when I most wanted a smoke, when I'd had a beer or two.

I've been nicotine free for a while now.

miss e. said...

that is really funny - the book you're reading now is next on my list.

Matt C said...

smoking is hard to quit
hope your voice comes back!
I had an infection last week and my voice has been gone also.

Vince said...

I'd fucking die.

Weary Hag said...

Good for you on the not-smoking bit!! Excellent. Sorry your voice is faltering but you know something? When my sister quit smoking, she lost her voice for about a week. Her doctor told her it's her system's way of clearing itself out. Maybe he was onto something.
Feel better.
By the way, I'm 50 and still yearn for mommy when I'm sick.

mw said...

congrats on the smoke-free days. I am thinking about the going home thing. I guess it depends on how far and what your relationship with mom is like. Most people can't believe that I didn't call my mom during labor. I'm glad I knew better - she just stresses me out. It's good to know yourself!

Tank said...

Hope you get better soon and I know what the quitting smoking is like, I'm still trying to cut down.

I'm at about 5 a day from about 15-20 but there are days when I slip.

LocuTus of Borg said...

Raspy sexy voice is so nice :) thanks for the nice thoughts haha