Sunday, June 19, 2005

to plan for the future...

Some time ago, a friend of mine from college, N, was diagnosed with Hodgkins disease. Throughout his illness, despite the fact that he wasn't in the best of spirits, N always did a magnificent job at keeping in touch and at keeping all his friends and family abreast as to how his condition was progressing and how the treatment was responding.

Yesterday N sent me an email to tell me that he was officially Hodgkins free and to let me know of all the things he intended to do now that he is not at the mercy of the disease. At the end of his email he said "Ah, it feels so good to be planning for the future again."

Upon reading this I couldn't help but feel like a horrible person. Every day of my life I make plans and then unmake them and have the freedom to change my mind as often as I like simply because I can. Then there are people like N, who for a long time couldn't really plan for the future because there might not be a future to plan for.

I don't think anyone really understands what a luxury the future is unless they can for one moment see a life that has its future taken away. Before yesterday, I didn't think that planning for the future was really anything other than something I was supossed to do. In any case, thanks to N today I am more appreciative of the possibilities and hopeful because no matter what happens, at least for now, I know that my future is before me and nothing is threatening to take it away.

As for N, I hope that in his future I can remain a part of his life just as I have in his present and his past.

13 comments:

Tank said...

Thanks for sharing... we often forget that the fact we have a future to plan for is a great gift that we shouldn't dismiss or ignore, at least not all the time.

I'm glad that your friend is Hodgkins free and can go about planning agian.

Grant said...

Great post. It reminds me of an old saying which goes something like "Life is what happens while you're making plans."

Gabemaster said...

I guess at some point in our lives we all meet somebody who through their personal courage and view of life makes us rethink ours. I'm happy for your friend and happy for you.

K said...

N's courage to start fresh since his life was put on hold for the healing process is outstanding!

Ana, don't be so hard on yourself. If we stop to think each day about what we take for granted we'd all be humbled. This world would be a much sweeter place to exist.

We all needed this lesson to remind us about what's important, so thank you for sharing the wisdom of N and his new path.

henry siteber said...

Thanks for the post. it hit home. We take a lot for granted and spend too much enegy bitching about the insignificant.

LocuTus of Borg said...

That was great and wish N the best!

Libélula said...

It's true we take too much for granted. We should try and seize the day, always...it is later than we think...

augimatic said...

Wow, that's pretty powerful!

mw said...

That's very profound. During pregnancy I worried what I would do if there were something physically or mentally "wrong" with my daughter. How do you plan a future for someone who will be dependent indefinately? I met a very stong woman with a son who is handicapped and learned that you just "do."

Sharron said...

I think it's human nature to take for granted the freedom to change your mind.

Bibiana said...

Well its better when you planned .. you do ... instead of just saying without action ..

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