I wanna scream!!!

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!

I wrote the previous post because I really felt that iPhone had stolen my friend.

But now I am CONVINCED it has.

...and it's like every day I have to erase someone from my BBM list and it's killing me because even though I know that it's not like they are no longer my friends, it feels like I am erasing them from my everyday life.

I am hurt. REALLY.

Hardcore Annush has found herself in a place where her everyday life with friends who live across the globe no longer are right there. This is killing me. I hate the concept of iPhone and touch screens and whatever but if I thought for one second that by switching phones I'd have my friends back the way I had them while I had my BB (ie- BBM accessible) I'd do it in a heartbeat.

But I lost my friends to stupid apps.

To a stupid uncomfortable phone more suitable for reading.

To a trend.

And my heart is broken.

Nobody's heart should be attached to a machine but mine was.

I've said it repeatedly, I am a creature of habit. This is bad no mater how I look at it and I am feeling isolated. And stupid. Stupid because I can't explain to my trendy iPhone loving loving friends why I feel the way I do.

AHHHHHHHHHH!!!!

BBM...you should be universal.

How the iPhone stole my friend.

I have never been interested in owning an iPhone.

Though people say I should own one because apparently "all the cool kids" have one and if they were to jump off a bridge, I would have to jump off too; in the same way that I am a PC, I heart my Blackberry.

I have owned several Blackberrys over the years. I remember the very first one I had which was so clunky that it barely passed the back pocket test (If it doesn't fit, I don't want it). Actually, I remember thinking at the time that I wouldn't last very long with that phone specifically because of its size.

I don't believe that Blackberry was ever intended to be a "cool" smartphone. If anything, at least back in the day, all it did was indicate that you had a job. Still, it does have what to this day I consider to be the coolest application EVER: BlackBerry Messenger.

My favorite people all live in different areas of the world. Although technology has made it easier to keep in touch, most of it still makes me painfully aware of how far apart we really are. And it sucks. At least I hate it.

I hate having to enter 567 numbers to call someone.

I hate Skype dates most of the time.

I hate sending email if i need a quick response.

I hate having to tweet for attention.

(and I know there are ways around all these things but still)

Anyway, BlackBerry Messenger makes me feel closer. I don't know if this was the original plan RIM had when developing this application, but it makes me feel lucky to know that most of the people I love who are far away own a BlackBerry and happy that they are only a message away.

I like to know that I can take and send a picture and get an immediate reaction.

I like to send voice notes singing (and also to receive them).

I like to be able to continue a conversation for days.

A few of my friends have sold into the hype of the iPhone 4.

I honestly didn't think it would make a difference in our relationship, but it has.

...and I miss them very much because for the first time they feel really far away.

Phones and lovers

I must be one of the few people I know who haven't fallen victims to the curse of the video- camera. I was gonna say camera in general but then I remembered that thing that time with that picture...Anyway, the data phone has become a staple of everyone's life and with it we have learned to document and then expose details of our lives that in the past would have been nothing more than pretty memories shared exclusively by the parties involved or a story told as you felt it- even if that wasn't necessarily how it went.

How times have changed.

I have a 17 year old sister who is addicted to her Blackberry and takes pictures of EVERYTHING. I know that she sees my openness and technological know-how laced up into a pretty little package and thinks that it's okay to share everything. But it's not. Not really. It's one thing to tell a story and something entirely different to hold evidence of what happened.

Phones are brilliant but they shouldn't be used for more than what they were intended to be used for: talking.

For the obsessed...

We all use them...here is an interesting essay trying to explain why.