Saturday, February 14, 2009

5 months...

I haven't blogged in so long, I forgot how this is done.

For weeks I'd been telling Eny that I wanted to get back to blogging. As always, she was super encouraging but of course, for every "you should totally do that " I snapped back with "I don't know about that". I am hard-headed, I don't listen...what can I say?

There is something about this blog that now pushes me away.

Like it's haunted.

Maybe it is all the emotion contained within the posts. Or the reason I created this blog to begin with. In any case, I have changed and so have my circumstances so I don't know to what extent I would be able to reconcile who I was the last couple of years with who I am now. I did think about deleting all 700+ posts and starting over but somehow that doesn't seem like a good idea either...

You won't know where you are going unless you know where you are coming from.

For now I'll stay. I'll make some changes to this blog but I won't delete one word. I had to experience everything I have experienced to get to where I am now and if who I was and who I am don't make sense when brought together then it is what it is. Maybe later I will really walk away from it but not just yet.

But this is my therapy... what I can refer to when I forget what I was trying to do.

I am back.

4 comments:

Gabemaster said...

WOW!!! Honestly for no particular reason, just for "the hell of it", I just punched your url in my browser before stepping away from the pc, convinced I wasn't going to find anything new. And what a pleasant surprise.

Now that I think about it....I guess by the simple act of just coming here, somewhere deep down inside but hidden from my mind, I missed reading your posts and this blog.

I can go on and on babbling about the importance of your blog, and how what you share gives people a tiny insight of the beautiful person you are. But all that is stuff you already know ( I hope you do).

So to sum it all up, I'll just say this:

I'm glad you are back. :)

annush said...

you are sweet :)

MissTexidor said...

Welcome back honey, we missed you!

Bracuta said...

Welcome back dude!