I haven't blogged in so long, I forgot how this is done.
For weeks I'd been telling Eny that I wanted to get back to blogging. As always, she was super encouraging but of course, for every "you should totally do that " I snapped back with "I don't know about that". I am hard-headed, I don't listen...what can I say?
There is something about this blog that now pushes me away.
Like it's haunted.
Maybe it is all the emotion contained within the posts. Or the reason I created this blog to begin with. In any case, I have changed and so have my circumstances so I don't know to what extent I would be able to reconcile who I was the last couple of years with who I am now. I did think about deleting all 700+ posts and starting over but somehow that doesn't seem like a good idea either...
You won't know where you are going unless you know where you are coming from.
For now I'll stay. I'll make some changes to this blog but I won't delete one word. I had to experience everything I have experienced to get to where I am now and if who I was and who I am don't make sense when brought together then it is what it is. Maybe later I will really walk away from it but not just yet.
But this is my therapy... what I can refer to when I forget what I was trying to do.
I am back.