I have always been pretty rebellious. As a child, I rebelled against my nannies and teachers. As a teenager, I rebelled against my mom. Then when I was young and stupid, I rebelled against the universe. Everything had to be when I wanted it how I wanted and if it was difficult or if I felt like it wasn't going to happen, I would force it into happening- even if it was to my detriment. I've never had the patience to wait.
I suppose that to "rebellious" we can add "spoiled".
My mom used to say to me that I had to learn from the palm trees, which during a storm bend in the direction of the winds to avoid an unfortunate fate. According to her, palm trees understand that they have to work with nature so nature will work with them and so I needed to learn to work with the universe.
I didn't because I knew EVERYTHING.
So I messed up some.
Since these days I know that all I really do know is what Google and Wikipedia tell me when I'm in doubt, I'm trying out a different approach: I'm following the signs. I'm looking for signs of what the universe feels I should do. It seems like when you are doing something right, even if its hard, it feels light on your soul…maybe because you are not spending so much energy forcing things into being
It seems like the universe has a way to make you spontaneously enlightened once you take the time to pay attention and really see what is there for you and what it is that you want. Then, you get the clarity to reconcile both things and see what exactly each one is going to give you the better ROI. Even good karma comes into play here.
But for that, one must be receptive. Like a palm tree.
I want to be a palm tree.