Wednesday, April 19, 2006

Boy you better do it soon no time will be better...

" Float along and listen to the song
the song say kiss the girl"
-Kiss the Girl by Sebastian (The Little Mermaid)

I have rules.

I have rules for everything.

The thing about my rules is that I actually stick to very few because, you know, rules are meant to be broken and I really do like to break stuff :)

Most of the rules I break are probably the ones I should stick to, and the ones I grab onto with both hands are the ones most reasonable people would break. I guess this means that I'm not reasonable. Whatever. I knew that.

When it comes to guys, I have a whole bunch of rules. So many of them, I often find it hard to remember them all, and as a result I end up breaking them before I can even think of them. Bad Annush, I know. But I like to think that I always remember "the important ones" so that always compensates for everythign else. At least in my mind.

One of my oldest guy rules is the "thou shall not make the first move" rule. I don't think I've ever broken that one. Not even when I was young and stupid. Not even when I was drunk. Not even when I've REALLY wanted to.

...and I think that's a terrible thing...

Maybe it's because deep down I'm old-fashioned, or just because I am a chicken. Either way, I am a firm believer in that men should ALWAYS make the first move no matter what. Sure, we can nudge and hint (I remember once I played Sixpence None The Richer's "Kiss Me" to someone so many times, I may have brainwashed him) and flirt our way to said first move but that's about as far as it goes until the guy does something. Anything.

I wish I was a little more flexible....

This past weekend (on Friday to be exact) , while dancing the night away, I ran into the person who is currently holding a good portion of my attention. Anyway, there we were, by the ocean, under the stars, full moon, dancing away and well he did nothing. Then comes Saturday night, once again the same setup except that this time I was cold so we were in a bungalow somewhere. We were sitting there, he was holding me, I was grabbing on to him like dear life. I look up, I smile, I talked a whole lot of nonsense. I got nothing.

...and I know that the problem is not that he doesn't like me because it's fairly obvious that he does. He calls, we hang out, we party, I get more tap kisses than I know what to do with and yet when it looks like something is going to happen then it doesn't. I think he is waiting for me to do something. But I won't. I can't. But I REALLY want to.

So, what do I do? I have no issues with making the second, third and fourth move. The first though, it's as though it's not my move to make! Though then again, maybe I've been spoiled because I've stumbled across some pretty romantic guys in my time...

In any case, what is it going to take?!?!?! what do I have to do?!?!?! I'm sure you've already noticed that I'm not that patient when it comes to certain things...any suggestions?

5 comments:

Libélula said...

Dude, I don't think anyone can help you with this one. It will always come down to you and what you are willing to risk in order to get what you want...I'd say go for it. No tienes que estrallártele como toda una desvergonzada (not that there's anything wrong with that) para dar el primer paso. Life's short, Honey...

quico said...

You don't cease to surprise me.
Everytime I think I have you figured out (from just reading) you manage to come up with with something, e.g., smoking, you don't eat meat but than again you smoke, go figure..., but anyways, this a new millenium and some guys don't mind being courted, sure why not, "off our feet".
I say go for it, but quit smoking for gods sake.

Grant said...

Go for it. I've never liked that "Men should make the first move" rule anyway. He might be afraid to make the first move since you're holding back, which he probably thinks is a sign that you'll reject him, especially if you're open and unreserved in other areas of your life. So, either take the next step or start acting like a submissive little bunny who needs a big, strong man to protect her and open pickle jars. Give me a call if you choose the latter. :p

quico said...

Pickles in the DR?
Now that I'd reall have to see.

Anyways, the man might just be playing dumb, or plain old hard to get...oughta boy!!!

gotbrains? said...

I say go for it. If he's all touchy, feely and tap-kissy, then he'll be into it. Maybe he's just incredibly shy?? If that's the case, just rape him. It'll make you both feel better.